leon help
march 17th, 2026
i have like 10 frames or more, haven't really been counting, just been making. ww3 got me really hunkering down in my head. i still listen to the news coverage, but compartmentalizing is more important to me at this point than staying in the know, endless scroll, glued to my phone like i used to be. god, i was such a terrible mom during covid. the compounded anxiety prevented me from following the "put the air mask on yourself before helping others when the plane is crashing" rule. i couldn't do shit and everything started falling apart around me for a few years, and all i could do was crumble apart and cry about it. i don't wanna be that person again. it's taken me a long time to get to this point, where i can pay bills on time and make dinner without a meltdown.
i started crocheting frames because i was obsessed with leon kennedy after playing re9. figured i'd make someting quick and creative, while printing out pictures of leon instead of compulsively buying one of those etsy collage shirts printed on a poly blend shirt. fuck. i'm not one of those "leon is my husband" girlies. i just respect the character, and the work all those female devs put into aging him up. they developed his story, and re9 was a good bow on his character arc. i respect the writing, including all the one-liners. i like that i get to be a part of cultural hedgemony. it's so rare i get to be a part of mainstream infatuation these days. i'm too much of a hipster.
at first, my daughter thought it was funny. she's only grown embarassed as i've crocheted more. it makes me feel bad about how i used to make my mom for crocheting so many lace doilies in the 90s. like my sister and i were so mean about it when all she probably wanted was the damn outlet. i didn't get it then. i do now. i tell my daughter that i'm just having fun. deep down i'm still just a dumb teenage girl full of whimsy. the whimsical space is a safe space. it's the safest space.
people are eventually going to ask if i'm gonna sell these. that's where my mind went, was on the whole handmade crafting business i could build. it's a sure path to frustration. i don't really want to dive headfirst into monetizing this new hobby. it's going to ruin the joy. this might just be a hyperfixtion. i'm just stoked about what i've made so far. i'll keep a gallery here because this feels kind of like a project, like something that'll be more of a journey than a business. guess we'll see.
Music: "BEAT UP CHANEL$" - slayyyter